Love

I really don't know how to express my love to them who I loved...
I mean my parents, my lover, and people that concern about me...
I was not able to express it by saying it or doing any action to prove I love you...
Please forgive me... I really love you all... I really care about you... You're my everything...

Perhaps, Should not treated as a Competition

Why I like to compete in a race that has no winner??
Even there is a winner I'm not the one...
But I'm still not admitting I'm losing...
I hate this feeling...
Just let me forget it and there are many competitions waiting for me...

I was once thought that I was the only contestant in this race but there's still more...
I was not serious that time perhaps...
I've tried my best after that and the result is the organizer said that the race is invalid...
Might be postponed and that time I might unqualified to take part...
But it become a tough race and there is only one champion...


Maybe the organizer had chosen the winner and does not want to let me know...
Cause I was seeing the champion was taking the trophy secretly...
Or I just too sensitive...
I was not trusting the organizer's word as those were like excuses to me...
Can you just give me a persuasive reason to stop competing
I was trying to take part in other races but I still want to finish this race...
Really lost direction...

Hardworking??

I'm not that hardworking as what you think for last time...
It's just because I understand the lesson well...
As you asked me, I might not know the answer but I will try to find the answer for you...
And that's the other way I can study...
Sounds ridiculous but it is true...

And I'm still that lazy now at the same time I'm not that understand the lesson and leads my results drop...
Maybe I got lots of thing to worry or just an excuse of laziness...
Since you did not ask me anything, I did not have any initiative to find out the answer...

But starting from now, I swear I will be more hardworking...
Maybe it might be too late to get back my results good but it's fine since I'll do my best...
I will not let you down anymore...
And I'll prepare for your questions...

Fool Again

I was came across this song when I was finding a song to listen as I was moody...
The first thought was Westlife's song since I was listening to them since I was in primary school...
Then after listening to 'I don't wanna fight' and 'Close', I saw this song and read through the lyrics...
After that I only realize this is the song that I was finding...
It is best to describe my feeling...
To know my feeling then can just read the lyrics...

Fool Again by Westlife
baby i know the story
i've seen the picture
it's written all over your face
tell me, what's the secret
that you've been hiding
and who's gonna take my place

i should've seen it comin'
i should've read the signs
anyway, i guess it's over

can't believe that i'm the fool again
i thought this love would never end
how was i to know
you never told me
can't believe that i'm the fool again
and i who thought you were my friend
how was i to know, you never told me

baby, you should've called me
when you were lonely
when you needed me to be there

sadly, you never gave me
to many chances
to show you how much i care

i should've seen it comin'
i should've read the signs
anyway, i guess it's over

can't believe that i'm the fool again
i thought this love would never end
how was i to know
you never told me
can't believe that i'm the fool again
and i who thought you were my friend
how was i to know, you never told me

about the pain and the tears
ohooooo, if i could i would
turn back the time

oh yeah...

i should've seen it comin'
i should've read the signs
anyway, i guess it's over

can't believe that i'm the fool again
i thought this love would never end
how was i to know
you never told me
can't believe that i'm the fool again
and i who thought you were my friend
how was i to know, you never told me

can't believe that i'm the fool again
i thought this love would never end
how was i to know
you never told me
can't believe that i'm the fool again
and i who thought you were my friend
how was i to know, you never told me