New environment??

I wish to be somewhere else... Not in Kampar after sticking here for the past 22 years... Actually i can spend my rest of my life in here with no doubt since I used to it... But I wanna try out new things and new experience... I need go outside to see the world from different angle...

Nevertheless, I will be missing my family after going out... I think this is the time I should go out to experience living in a city before it is too late... As my parents are growing older, I don't think I got the chance to go out... I'll be back for sure after I experience the life in a developing area with a lot of challenges and difficulties... Coz I really love the life in Kampar... Relaxing n Peaceful...

Anyhow, staying and working at where still a doubt for me as I still haven't got any offers of job... Salary is not a problem for me as long as enough for me to survive in this concrete forest and a bit of savings... Working experience will be the main factor for me...

Sigh.... Give me a way... I feel lost now... I don't want to work at a same place anymore... Please give me a better place to settle down...

Graduate izzit that good afterall

This post signifies that I had finish my University life. But I still not yet ready for it. I miss my studying period and my beloved classmates as well as my dearest buddies. I had been stepping to the working world since last year working in Telco company while studying, but now I feel it is very different to work solely in the community. I felt lost. I scare I can't find a good job and continue my life orderly. Now only I know studying is good. Less worries, less competitions, more friends, more entertainment.

I really don't know how is my life going after working outside. For sure will be more stress, more burden, more worries. Just hope that I can cope it as fast as possible.

For the meantime, I hope my application of job can be successful. I really miss my dear pals, hope to meet them together very very soon.

Broken heart...

I had no idea what makes u change your mind...
But u had decided to continue with it...
I'm speechless...
Thought that it was a new beginning and was trying to expect something...
But happy time was just too short...
It had turned into darkness and disappointment...

Is he good enough and deserves your love??

Can u tell me??
I'm down now...
No more direction...

I was too late to say I love you...
I was too late to take any action...
I was too late to know you...
I was too late...

What I can give is not what you want,
What you want I can fulfill it...

I do not deserve to play this game,
Cause I can't afford to lose anymore,
This game is known as love...

Yet to Regret

I am undergoing the same situation again now...
Yet I miss the opportunity again...
I'm not sure whether U are giving me an opportunity,
but I not dare to test or try it...
I still don't have confident...

I've waited for the time and it has come,
but it din seem anything to be happen between us,
I had think too much...

There are competitors outside,
Tight competitors,
Maybe I just can't compare myself with them...
Coz you dun have any feel on me...

I'm missing u every time i leave u,
but I'm just speechless when u are in front or beside me...
Now I regret...
I really dunno wat to do and who to tell...
Should i tell u tat???

Grandpa

I feel sad but just can't cry... One of my dearest family member passed away last night... That's my grandpa... I can't rush to see him the last sight... But i was with him the day before to see a doctor in Kampar Hospital... Thought that he was just gastric... He was still fine yesterday morning... But he just left us suddenly in the evening...

I just want to say that Kampar Hospital is sucks... Need for a long queue for an elderly who was in serious pain... We waited for bout 4 hours for my grandpa's turn... We waited again after sending him to the ER... After bout 2 hours, just let him walk out by himself without informing us... What service is that?? Only one doctor on duty and she in charged of everything??

I didn't cry maybe because I'm not that close with him... All I can say is he didn't treat my mom, dad, me and my sis as good as his other daughters, son-in-laws and grandchildren... Maybe we are poor as what we did n said were just rubbish... But I really did what a grandchildren does... Anything happens my mom will be the first to arrive... Not because we lived near, it's because we care... Those who are living far will just call back and instruct us what to do... Coz they can pay with money...

I'm gonna stay with u the whole night and send u to a better place 2ml... Just hope that you can rest in peace... My dear grandpa...

I do not deserve 我不配

You once tell me that you should listen to your mom
你曾经跟我说过要听妈妈的话

But I know it is an excuse
但我知这藉口

Now, I can feel your sweetness
现在我能感觉到你是甜甜的

You will always be my adorable beloved
你将永远是我的可爱女人

If there is a time machine bring me back
如果有时光机器带我回到过去,

I will also speechless
我也会开不了口

And I know it's time for me to turn back
而且我知道这是时间退后

And will not staying here any more
并不会留在这里献世

Just hope you can listen it
只希望你听得到

I will be leaving here silently
我会安静的分裂(离开)

Not because I'm a coward
这不是因为我是个懦夫

However, I do not deserve
但由于我不配

Wish you can get Promised Happiness
祝你能得到说好的幸福呢

Reopen

Before tis i closed my current blog cz i tend to write smth really personal in this blog and let my dearest friends to view only...

But now i changed my mind... I also dunno why... I think cz i like to receive comments from my viewers n know how they think towards me n my blog...

I would like to share more bout my living since in the reality world i cant talk to each of u guys everytime i got smth new to share...